urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad Like it, or Leave. .M.A.D.D.I.E. 2005-05-11T03:03:05Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:33551 2005-05-11T03:03:05Z 2005-05-11T03:03:05Z yay for summer vacation!<br /><br /><br />only 4 more days and i'll be back in New Jersey. hopefully work won't kick my ass. that would be ... bad. very very bad. <br /><br /><br />nothing really to update. my dad fired nate, the cutest delivery boy ever (and the boy that i cheated on my former boyfriend/love of my life with every summer since the 8th grade while boyfriend went to baseball camp) i'm not so happy with my daddy right now. he's the only one that was cute enough to deliver to my house. i'm picky :P urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:33428 2005-05-02T17:08:41Z 2005-05-02T17:09:42Z Julie and CT both accepted bids last night. so excited! i'm finally going to get a younger sister :) hopefully the pledge class is big next semester, especially since we're struggling with numbers. but we're supposed to. we're a local sorority :) imagine this, 14 girls as compared to sororities with 50+ girls ... and we won sorority of the year on Shippensburg's campus. take that one, biatches. i love being part of the not so stereotypical sorority on campus. things work out so much better.<br /><br /><br />also congrats to pi lambda phi for winning fraternity of the year. oh Dean. you're dreamy. <br /><br /><br />trying to pack away all my things to move back home or to the house that i'm living in next semester. it sucks though because i can barely walk because of my ankle. no more power hours with wine. EVER. again. my daddy won't even drive down to help me :\ he's being a jerkface.<br /><br /><br />finals are kicking my ass. i can't wait until this week is over. <br /><br /><br />Dean offerred to take me out to dinner sometime this week, since supposedly he owes me it because of the terms of the date auction agreement. he didn't want me to think that he's a jerk or something, but i really could've cared less. i know that he doesn't really want to go, and it'd be hypocritical of me to make him go when i totally blew off the dorky kid that paid $46 for a date with me (imagine that!) dean and i are not mean to be together. we're both shy. two shy people don't go well with each other. i just took a rain check until next semester. i just want to ride in the red mustang with the top down :x<br /><br /><br />i guess nothing else is really new. it's naptime or study time. or maybe i'll do whatever i feel like doing. peace out homies. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:33224 2005-04-21T03:29:39Z 2005-04-21T03:29:39Z .:sigh:.<br /><br /><br />i officially hate greek week. we sucked at everything we did so far, but hey, we had fun. i hurt all overrrr. i haven't been real physically active lately, so this weekend has been treacherous. not to mention, human pyramids tonight? hrmm, no. this chick was even on the bottom because the rest of the girls are pussies.<br /><br /><br />whatever.<br /><br /><br />i ended up going to the date party on friday night, even though i really didn't want to. i wanted to go by myself, but Mase (one of the boys that pledged Pi Lam this semester) practically begged that i take him (because i'm hot stuff of course). apparently he skipped out on driving to Chicago to see his friend so he could party this weekend, and his idea of partying was coming to the Alpha Sig date party. woofreakinghoo. oh, well. at least he wasn't clingy. and i didn't have to take him home!<br /><br /><br />after the date party, Khai (my asian crush) stopped by and took me to the Pi Lam house. hrm, wasn't a pretty sight. we drove up Greek Row and there was allllll these people cluttered in front of the house. luckily, they weren't there because of Pi Lam, but rather Pi Kapp, who's right across the street. well whatever. we got out of the car and Dean (so hot soo soooo hottt) was WASTED, and he was just walking around and saying shit under his breath, so Khai told me to try to get him into the house. he wouldn't. he like, flung me against the house, and since i was drunk to begin with and wearing heels, i nailed the house, and then the ground, and MAN, i really felt it the next morning. anyway. Dean kept leaving, and no one knew where he went. he lost his shoes, so he was basically walking around barefoot. his feet were fiiillllthyyy. <br /><br /><br />then the boys started wrestling. first it was Dylan and Irish, Dylan won. then Royce wanted to wrestle Irish, so they wrestled ... three times. Irish won all three times. THEN, Dylan wrestled Dean. Dean won. but it was some funny shit, let me tell you. i'm updating webshots really soon, so you can look at them there. everytime i'm drunk i take soooo many pictures. <br /><br /><br />won't mention anything else about the evening. but needless to say, i behaved. i'm just a prude, what can i say?<br /><br /><br />nothing else is really going on. just waiting for the semester to end so i can head back to jersey. rawr. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:32950 2005-04-15T20:16:36Z 2005-04-15T20:16:36Z date party tonight. and this one doesn't have anything to wear. <br /><br /><br />or any beverages.<br /><br /><br />and even more importantly ... a date? haha.<br />screw that. i'll have more fun if i go by myself. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:32731 2005-04-14T18:12:49Z 2005-04-14T18:12:49Z please tell me that the whole rating community plague was just a fad. i'm sick of fucking promotions. <br /><br /><br />i'm baaack!!! at least for a little. who knows how long i'll update this shit.<br /><br /><br />anyway. i'll make a long story short. got sick of albright, so i transferred to Shippensburg. it's still kind of small compared to other universities, but it's a heck of a lot bigger than Albright and that's DEFINITELY what i wanted. like it a lot more.<br /><br /><br />met a few girls from a local sorority here, Alpha Sigma. they're wonderful wonderful girls and i was really looking to make friends, so low and behold ... i joined, and now i'm a sister. woohoo! this isn't your typical sorority and i am not your typical sorority girl. <br /><br /><br />anyhoo. our "brother fraternity" is Pi Lambda Phi. the guys are assholes, potheads, alcoholics, etc. but they're just so cute! haha. the only reason we're so close to them is because half of my sorority is dating half of their fraternity. so naturally, as you all know i'm boy crazy, i developed a crush on a certain person of the male persuation. <br /><br />this is he:)<br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/dean.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><br /><br />isn't he marvelous? his name is Dean, he's a freshman too! he drives a VERY nice red mustang convertible and is from the Pittsburg area. did i mention he's intelligent? and he's NOT a big pothead, or an asshole. finally :) but this is a picture of him and some of his brothers:<br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/boys.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><br />don't mind my drawing. haha, i'm a weirdo, i know. doesn't it look like the one kid is like picking his nose? hrmm, yeah.<br /><br /><br />but anyhoo. last night was the Greek Date Auction, and i officially made an ass out of myself, not once, but TWICE. i bid on Dean and won ... for $23. i was so embarassed; i couldn't stop shaking. Erin (one of my sisters and Pi Lam's "sweetheart") was supposed to bid on him for me, but then she stopped. so instead, I had to bid all by myself. .:sigh:. i'm growing up way too fast. <br /><br /><br />and then! it was my turn (i was volunteered to do this, mind you ... not to mention, it was for charity). Dean was bidding on me, against this kid thats in Kappa Sigma (the dorky boys that basically just hand out letters). Dean told me that he thought he won, but he DIDN'T. so now i have to go out to eat with this 5 foot tall, 100 lb skinny kid who i was warned was very creepy (by a girl that dates one of his fraternity brothers) and is known as the "fraternity weirdo".<br /><br /><br />GREAT.<br /><br /><br />and i officially can never talk to Dean. EVER. AGAIN.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />there you go. there's your update. oh! also, my sister had another baby in december. her name is mia gabrielle and she's precious. i'm flying to vegas in mid-June to see her and her fiance get married. it's about time they tied the not. <br /><br /><br />zachary is also flying to korea tomorrow. luckily i remembered. i have to call him :( this is so sad. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:32345 2004-11-29T04:57:46Z 2004-11-29T04:57:46Z i didn't die.<br /><br /><br />i'm just going thru a tough time. this week i finally decided that i need to get out of this school before it drives me to suicide ... literally, and i'm not even close to being a depressing person. but uh huh, i'm not coming back to albright next semester. granted i don't know what i'm going to do with my life in the spring, there's no way in hell that i'll be seeing albright ever again at the end of these next three weeks. <br /><br /><br />shippensburg? i think? i'm going to call admissions to see if i can get in for spring semester, but i'm pretty sure that's where i'm going to be come fall anyway. if not, i can always take classes at LCCC for the spring and work, and help out my sister with the babies. by the way, my sister's popping out her second baby really soon. how quaint.<br /><br /><br />so jamie ... i guess this means i'll be going to school near you? haha. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:32183 2004-11-10T09:30:09Z 2004-11-10T09:30:43Z <i>On your current playlist, hit shuffle and pick the first twenty songs on the list (no matter how cheesy or embarrassing), and write down your favorite line of the song. Try to avoid putting the song title in the line. Then, have your friends comment and see if they know the songs. No google-cheating.</i><br /><br /><br />i added an extra five because i was bored. haha, oops.<br /><br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br /><br />1. spit and retrieve cause I give and receive, because I wanna.<br /><br />2. i got me a piece of ya block tonight, and i'm leaving wit' someone hot tonight.<br /><br />3. i just wanna be all over the floor, and throw my hands up in the air to a beat like what?!<br /><br />4. your smile, its the most genuine thing I've ever seen, i was so lost and now i believe.<br /><br />5. well, i guess i was wrong, i just don't belong, but then i've been there before. <br /><br />6. just hold me baby, and i'm in ecstacy.<br /><br />7. girl, you're the best, you could be an angel among society.<br /><br />8. put your ear up to the radio, now you see where the pieces go.<br /><br />9. i recognize the way you make me feel, it's hard to think that you might not be real.<br /><br />10. don't let this end before i see you again, what can i say to make you change your mind?<br /><br />11. so what now? it's plain to see we're over, and I hate when things are over when so much is left undone.<br /><br />12. just say i turn you on like a fire that burns inside.<br /><br />13. so if you're lonely, you know i'm here waiting for you.<br /><br />14. pictures came and broke your heart, put the blame on vcr<br /><br />15. i'll never leave, i'll never stray, my love for you will never change.<br /><br />16. surprise, i'm kind of happy that you showed up.<br /><br />17. what have i become, my sweetest friend? everyone i know goes away in the end.<br /><br />18. and i'm beyond your peripheral vision, so you might want to turn your head.<br /><br />19. you looking at me, with that sexy attitude? but the way your boy's movin' it, it puts me in the mood.<br /><br />20. some boys take a beautiful girl and hide her away from the rest of the world.<br /><br />21. girl recognize game, before game recognize you. you're dealin wit a player, true, now whatchu wanna do?<br /><br />22. there are many things that i'd like to say you you, but i don't know how.<br /><br />23. the bluest of blue, that's her eyes are, that's what i am today.<br /><br />24. love everything about the way you're lovin' me, the way you lay your head upon my shoulder when you sleep.<br /><br />25. a fool could see just how much i adore, i get down on my knees, i'd do anything for you.<br /><br /><br />haha, these suckas are hard. if i didn't just type them out, i wouldn't know what songs they're from ... i'm not going to lie. haha, i listen to such random music. it's rather funny. and i'm screening comments to see who gets the most correct :] haha, i'm slick tonight. and please don't cheat, it's more fun that way.<br /><br /><br />this is the saddest reminder that i should clear all the crappy music off of my harddrive ... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:31977 2004-11-10T05:22:37Z 2004-11-10T05:22:37Z okay. i'm going to recommend a music artist that EVERYONE should check out. his name is butch walker, and he toured with avril lavigne this past fall. his first single/video is called "mixtape", and you should definitely download it. if you can't find it anywhere to download, just go to <a href="http://www.butchwalker.com">http://www.butchwalker.com</a> and it's the first clip you hear when you enter the site. check out his other music too; it's definitely quality, in my opinion. and if you like it, buy his cd, letters! it's been out since the beginning of september.<br /><br /><br />a thank you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:31612 2004-11-10T00:15:33Z 2004-11-10T00:19:06Z our mixer with SAE was somewhat fun ... i had more fun with my girls than with any of those silly frat boys. i didn't take many pictures. don't be too disappointed.<br /><br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br /><br />sexiest trophy wives ever! our crowns and necklaces were all different colors and they flashed. totally hotttt.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/adpi/DSC01216.jpg"><br /><br />bethany and her "i'm not that drunk" face.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/adpi/DSC01225.jpg"><br /><br />lindsay and jen after al fell down the stairs ... bahahaha.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/adpi/DSC01222.jpg"><br /><br />hey carissa ... how much do you like pabst beer?<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/adpi/DSC01226.jpg"><br /><br />awwe, cathy and laura match. haha<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/adpi/DSC01219.jpg"><br /><br />i told steve i wanted an action shot.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/adpi/DSC01221.jpg"><br /><br />me and my <i>diamond</i>. loooooove staacceeeyyy!!!<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/adpi/DSC01217.jpg"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:31436 2004-11-07T04:08:53Z 2004-11-07T04:08:53Z so tonight, the suite girls are playing truth or dare and never have i ever. granted that everything that is done/said is of sexual orientation, i decided to duck out and catch up on some school work and studying.<br /><br /><br />i'm such a good girl. <br /><br /><br />in other words ... i'm a loser :P urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:31130 2004-11-07T03:23:44Z 2004-11-07T03:23:44Z \ x / e r d . urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:30938 2004-11-03T23:07:39Z 2004-11-03T23:07:39Z i've never been really political, and this is the last time in the next four years that i'm going to be. but i saw this in one of my friends' away messages, and had to post it ... since it makes A LOT of sense.<br /><br /><br /><i>The Republican Party should change its emblem from the elephant to a condom. The condom more clearly reflects the party's stance today because a condom accepts inflation, halts production, destroys the next generation, protects a bunch of pricks, and gives you a sense of security while you're actually getting fucked.</i><br /><br /><br />a thank you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:30611 2004-11-03T15:02:27Z 2004-11-03T15:03:54Z dear america -<br /><br /><br />thank you for screwing over my generation while i slept last night. here's to four more <s>years</s> wars.<br /><br /><br />love,<br /><br />madelyn g. maratea urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:30300 2004-11-02T18:47:35Z 2004-11-02T19:08:11Z there's like 30+ pictures under the cut.<br /><br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br />okay, so let me explain. my hair looks really red in all of these pictures because the night before, i dressed up as ginger to go to my date kyle's fraternity's halloween party. i wasn't nearly as cute that night either. that's why i refuse to post any of the pictures from that night.<br /><br />but anyhoo ... i present to you ...<br /><br /><br />the sexy ladies i live with :] i'm the bumblebee, by the way.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01176.jpg"><br /><br />stacey and kim.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01180.jpg"><br /><br />niki and cait<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01199.jpg"><br /><br />me and my roommate shana.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01203.jpg"><br /><br />me and "k-money, da bunny".<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01211.jpg"><br /><br />marissa, amber, emily, and me ... emily was "holy" shit. it was so funny.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01184.jpg"><br /><br />me and kyle ... the best looking date EVER. he was such a cute gilligan.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01186.jpg"><br /><br />marissa and stacey hardy.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01191.jpg"><br /><br />skilly [nicole ritchie] and cathy.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01197.jpg"><br /><br />me and kate b ... she's going to be miss america someday. :]<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01183.jpg"><br /><br />christiann and shawn.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01202.jpg"><br /><br />kyle and laura. and yes, i was jealous.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01206.jpg"><br /><br />stacey and collette.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01193.jpg"><br /><br />gina and amanda.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01188.jpg"><br /><br />me and my "diamond" sister, stacey ... it's a sorority thing.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01178.jpg"><br /><br />alpha and tim.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01212.jpg"><br /><br />a bunch of girls.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01209.jpg"><br /><br />brenna and nibbles. he made such a good dork!<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01195.jpg"><br /><br />the martini girls ... kate b, stacey k, julie and lil' meg<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01181.jpg"><br /><br />carissa, me, and stacey.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01179.jpg"><br /><br />rob and justine.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01177.jpg"><br /><br />me and my violet sister, k reilly ... another sorority thing.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01194.jpg"><br /><br />laura and her boyfriend.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01196.jpg"><br /><br />kate b and wade.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01192.jpg"><br /><br />blah.<br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01204.jpg"><br /><br /><br /><br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:30078 2004-11-02T04:51:03Z 2004-11-02T05:03:31Z someone please tell me i didn't take the hottest "guest" ever to my halloween party.<br /><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v222/em1aj03/alpha%20delta%20pi/DSC01182.jpg"><br /><br /><br />my date was gilligan. the other boy is his "big". kyle mont is a frat boy. <br /><br /><br />.:. sigh .:. i know, i know. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:29712 2004-11-02T01:34:25Z 2004-11-02T01:34:25Z in honor of election day tomorrow ... i present to you, my kerry/meyers userpic.<br /><br /><br /><i>"When you look at everything that's happening in the world right now with the global war on terror and the economy and jobs...that what America really needs is more Seth Meyers on television."</i>- Seth Meyers on Late Night with Conan O'Brien, October 13, 2004 [i was there at that taping in NY, did i mention that?!]<br /><br /><br />buuuut i don't care who YOU vote for, just VOTE [if you're legally able to]. <br /><br /><br />AND watch the SNL presidential bash tonight at 10/9 PM central on NBC. a thank you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:29487 2004-11-01T19:36:25Z 2004-11-01T19:36:25Z have no fear.<br /><br /><br />my camera has been located!<br /><br /><br />thank you, laura stankiewicz!!!!!! :]<br /><br /><br />PS: josh hunter.<br />you suck.<br />a lot. <br />and we're not speaking anymore.<br />thank you.<br /><br /><br />pi love,<br />maddie urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:29223 2004-11-01T06:21:16Z 2004-11-01T06:21:16Z my camera has yet to be found. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:29038 2004-10-31T02:48:47Z 2004-10-31T02:48:47Z i wanted to post my pictures from the party last night.<br /><br /><br />but my digital camera is missing. and i'm in biiiiiig trouble. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />:[ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:28688 2004-10-29T14:03:09Z 2004-10-29T14:03:09Z I believe in Karma <br />what you give is what you get returned<br />I believe you can't appreciate real love <br />until you've been burned<br />I believe the grass is no more greener <br />on the other side<br />I believe you don't know what you've got <br />until you say goodbye urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:28539 2004-10-28T13:41:10Z 2004-10-28T13:41:10Z dear tawnya bensinger:<br /><br /><br />i hated you in high school, when we used to play basketball against each other. i hated you even more when you broke my nose. i hate you most now because you're dating the boy of my dreams. so i repeat, I HATE YOU.<br /><br /><br />pi love,<br /><br />madelyn g. maratea urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:28405 2004-10-22T19:21:39Z 2004-10-22T19:21:39Z oh, dave sheris. how i've missed you so.<br /><br /><br />so when i was a soph in high school, i met this boy from a town near my hometown in some chat room. i talked to him a lot, found out where he worked, and definitely stalked him down, in a nonchalant way. but we became good friends, i visited him at work a lot, went to his track and baseball games ... fun times.<br /><br /><br />but since we both left for college, we didn't really get to talk a lot, and it's been over a year since i've last seen him. i was talking to him online last night, and he's like "you gotta meet my friend, he's built, and hot, really nice guy" blah blah blah. so i ended up driving to kutztown to his apartment at 2 AM. his friend was in a pissy mood, and dave was tired, so he's like "we're going to bed". yeah, i wasn't too excited. but he then proceeded to tickle and touch me and sure enough, he BEGGED me to make out with him. haha. of course i was game because i've thought he was the hottest guy ever for a long, long time.<br /><br /><br />he's taking me to the halloween party next friday night :] i can't wait.<br /><br /><br />will post pictures soon! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:28002 2004-10-21T13:34:21Z 2004-10-21T13:34:21Z i guess i should change my user icon.<br /><br /><br />since the yankees blow. gahhhhhhhhhh.<br /><br /><br />worst day EVER, right here. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:27671 2004-10-20T06:32:56Z 2004-10-20T06:32:56Z i think the reason that i've been so unhappy lately is because <i>he</i> has been on my mind lately.<br /><br /><br />it's not the fact that we broke up. it's not the fact that he has a girlfriend that's a duplicate of me, only 3 years younger. <br /><br /><br />it's just the fact that i had <b>everything</b> with him. there's not a memory i don't have growing up that didn't involve him in some way or another. there's not a yearbook that i have that doesn't mention having "good luck" [whatever that meant during the elementary years] with him. back then, i could never see myself without him.<br /><br /><br />and sometimes, i wish i wasn't without him.<br /><br /><br />it's just the incessant support that i always had. i never had to worry about having a date to dances and formals because even if he was being a stubborn ass, i could always take one of his good friends. but in college, it's different. finding a date is this long, strenuous process that i HATE. and it doesn't help that being a member of a sorority, there's CONSTANTLY a social function that requires bringing a date. <br /><br /><br />i quit. why can't i just go back to high school when life was easy? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:maddiezgonemad:27548 2004-10-20T04:52:44Z 2004-10-20T04:52:44Z oh my world.<br />so much drama.<br />so little time.<br /><br /><br /><font size="+4">the long awaited update: </font>coming soon to a livejournal near you.